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Just before we start, I might wanna leave this Icon here in case none of you read through this shit. ===> :iconnoodle-waver: This is my new account


Okay, as I promised, I'm going to explain some shit.

There will be nothing but plain text, but if you really care, you would read on.

OKAY. Where do I begin?
WHY DID I TURN INTO AN ASSHOLE?
Okay, first off, to be honest, the day Meagan, or, more known to you guys as ROSE of the long dead account 'xrosekittyx', was pretty much the day I got mentally unstable. It did not help that the first college I went to sucked dick, and everyone was a high class bastard, that all were better than me. That hit me hard. My cousins who had been my guardians at the time because my parents were abroad in the Middle East, and they did not take one bit of shit of care for me. They fucked shit up and it was too late when me and my brother found out that my cousin and her sicko husband were stealing ALL my PARENT'S hard earned money which they send overseas to ME but I never got notice of it. We lost a large amount of money, wasted on drugs and other shit I do not now, and care not for.

At this point, I just lost my shit. I was a chubby guy, but because of my cousin's negligence, I lost weight. A meal was basically just plain rice and old stale potato chips. Now, I now I may sound like a weak asshole, but get this fact straight: If I did something physically, I will get KILLED. I am not exaggerating. First off, my cousins know people, possibly armed friends. Second I had NO IDEA this was all taking place at the time. I took their lies, and fucked up.

One thing you guys may or may not know is that my depression has worsened over the days that passed. I absolutely cannot contain and/or control it, so sometimes I act normal, but the next, I burst out in a raging depressed self. For simplicity's sake, let us call my unstable self 'R'. At School, I grew more and more unsociable and I isolated myself from pretty much everyone I know, and in the DA timeline, that was when I became inactive, and started to create other Accounts to try and start new, but I just became lonelier and further into isolation. 'R' took over, and by this time, I started a fight in school because of constant bickering and bullying. I knew I started something which caused my respect to disappear. I Unofficially Dropped myself from college.

I became...well...R was EXTREMELY aggressive. Not only to others, but to me.

I started...

Let's not go to that.

My Resolution?
After news of what happened, and my big brother realizing the truth from a tip from someone who knew my fucked up cousins, called up my mom, and she returned home.

Shit did not go down well, but in the end, my fucker of a cousin was kicked out. FOR GOOD. NEVER TO RETURN. They left their own ids behind too. Fucking morons. My mother returned to the Middle East with my dad, and returned after one more year of working there, as my dad's contract had ended and he was retired.

With my parents back, I had someone to look up to and share problems.

They were back, and I was going to be okay.

Or so I thought.

R never left. He was always there. I have fits now and then. I realized. What I had to go through as a child in high-school, added by the ignorance and isolation of me in my Early College days took their toll. I am physically healthy. But my mental state has slowly dwindled by years.

I'm now in another College, and now in my Second year. I have good friends. But of course, R fucks shit up, and I lose a few for good, but that's okay. There are people who are too close to me to separate. There is a girl who I love because of how much she helps me with my mental state. She understands. The Teachers are chill.

As of now, R has last recently been active 2 weeks ago. I am still recovering from a mental breakdown after an argument with a classmate.

I'm doing good so far, education wise, and social wise. I'm fine as of now.

What made me come back though?

The memories that have always stayed here.

..

The Future?
You may all think I will come back to this account.

That's what I thought too.

I checked out my gallery and attempted to delete and fix some stuff..but to my surprise, it's fucked up to hell and back. I am unable to delete things anymore.

So I am stuck with a 'non-working' account. I am not going to deal with DA support, because honestly, I'm fine with this account being in this state. It serves as a...memoir of some sorts.

So what now?

This is important and VERY EMPIRICAL FOR YOU TO UNDERSTAND.
Please visit my recent account here ===> :iconnoodle-waver:

I cannot stress this enough.

I WILL NOT USE THIS ACCOUNT FOR NEW STUFF, BUT I WILL BE OVER AT :iconnoodle-waver: I REPEAT, I WILL BE AT :iconnoodle-waver:

And guys...I missed you fuckers.
Miss Me, Motherfuckers?

I'll be writing an essay of why I left and why I made enemies along the way later.

For now, just savor the fact I'm going back here.
Just before we start, I might wanna leave this Icon here in case none of you read through this shit. ===> :iconnoodle-waver: This is my new account


Okay, as I promised, I'm going to explain some shit.

There will be nothing but plain text, but if you really care, you would read on.

OKAY. Where do I begin?
WHY DID I TURN INTO AN ASSHOLE?
Okay, first off, to be honest, the day Meagan, or, more known to you guys as ROSE of the long dead account 'xrosekittyx', was pretty much the day I got mentally unstable. It did not help that the first college I went to sucked dick, and everyone was a high class bastard, that all were better than me. That hit me hard. My cousins who had been my guardians at the time because my parents were abroad in the Middle East, and they did not take one bit of shit of care for me. They fucked shit up and it was too late when me and my brother found out that my cousin and her sicko husband were stealing ALL my PARENT'S hard earned money which they send overseas to ME but I never got notice of it. We lost a large amount of money, wasted on drugs and other shit I do not now, and care not for.

At this point, I just lost my shit. I was a chubby guy, but because of my cousin's negligence, I lost weight. A meal was basically just plain rice and old stale potato chips. Now, I now I may sound like a weak asshole, but get this fact straight: If I did something physically, I will get KILLED. I am not exaggerating. First off, my cousins know people, possibly armed friends. Second I had NO IDEA this was all taking place at the time. I took their lies, and fucked up.

One thing you guys may or may not know is that my depression has worsened over the days that passed. I absolutely cannot contain and/or control it, so sometimes I act normal, but the next, I burst out in a raging depressed self. For simplicity's sake, let us call my unstable self 'R'. At School, I grew more and more unsociable and I isolated myself from pretty much everyone I know, and in the DA timeline, that was when I became inactive, and started to create other Accounts to try and start new, but I just became lonelier and further into isolation. 'R' took over, and by this time, I started a fight in school because of constant bickering and bullying. I knew I started something which caused my respect to disappear. I Unofficially Dropped myself from college.

I became...well...R was EXTREMELY aggressive. Not only to others, but to me.

I started...

Let's not go to that.

My Resolution?
After news of what happened, and my big brother realizing the truth from a tip from someone who knew my fucked up cousins, called up my mom, and she returned home.

Shit did not go down well, but in the end, my fucker of a cousin was kicked out. FOR GOOD. NEVER TO RETURN. They left their own ids behind too. Fucking morons. My mother returned to the Middle East with my dad, and returned after one more year of working there, as my dad's contract had ended and he was retired.

With my parents back, I had someone to look up to and share problems.

They were back, and I was going to be okay.

Or so I thought.

R never left. He was always there. I have fits now and then. I realized. What I had to go through as a child in high-school, added by the ignorance and isolation of me in my Early College days took their toll. I am physically healthy. But my mental state has slowly dwindled by years.

I'm now in another College, and now in my Second year. I have good friends. But of course, R fucks shit up, and I lose a few for good, but that's okay. There are people who are too close to me to separate. There is a girl who I love because of how much she helps me with my mental state. She understands. The Teachers are chill.

As of now, R has last recently been active 2 weeks ago. I am still recovering from a mental breakdown after an argument with a classmate.

I'm doing good so far, education wise, and social wise. I'm fine as of now.

What made me come back though?

The memories that have always stayed here.

..

The Future?
You may all think I will come back to this account.

That's what I thought too.

I checked out my gallery and attempted to delete and fix some stuff..but to my surprise, it's fucked up to hell and back. I am unable to delete things anymore.

So I am stuck with a 'non-working' account. I am not going to deal with DA support, because honestly, I'm fine with this account being in this state. It serves as a...memoir of some sorts.

So what now?

This is important and VERY EMPIRICAL FOR YOU TO UNDERSTAND.
Please visit my recent account here ===> :iconnoodle-waver:

I cannot stress this enough.

I WILL NOT USE THIS ACCOUNT FOR NEW STUFF, BUT I WILL BE OVER AT :iconnoodle-waver: I REPEAT, I WILL BE AT :iconnoodle-waver:

And guys...I missed you fuckers.

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I am no longer using this account for active use.

I am now located here.

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:iconblackace-of-spade:
BlackAce-of-Spade Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Ey your back! :D
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:icontotaldramalover54:
totaldramalover54 Featured By Owner Jun 6, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Hey haven't talked to you in FOREVER.
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:iconsour-mantis:
SoUr-MaNtIs Featured By Owner Aug 24, 2014  Student General Artist
Apologies. Read my journal
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:iconthesuzucorn:
theSuzucorn Featured By Owner Apr 6, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist

hi~
thanks for sticking with me for so long~ <3
i recently made a Facebook page for my art, and it would be really great if you could support me on there as well ovo
i understand if you cant, or dont want to though
but ill be more active on there because its a lot easier, what with the Facebook app on my phone and all
anyway, yeah. thank you very much uvu
www.facebook.com/theSuzucorn

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Jolterane Featured By Owner Oct 28, 2013  Student Digital Artist
I had to see all your stamps and had to look at all the PLZ's in you ID just to say this:

DUDE! WHY WASN'T I WATCHING YOU BEFORE?
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SoUr-MaNtIs Featured By Owner Oct 28, 2013  Student General Artist
:iconderpyshrugplz::iconcolgateshrugplz::iconvinylscratchshrugplz::iconoctaviashrugplz::iconlyrashrugplz::iconbonbonshrugplz:
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Jolterane Featured By Owner Oct 28, 2013  Student Digital Artist
:XD:
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PumpkinLOL Featured By Owner Oct 27, 2013  Student Digital Artist
OMG where have u been? We haven't heard from u for a while.
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:iconsour-mantis:
SoUr-MaNtIs Featured By Owner Oct 28, 2013  Student General Artist
I was in college. :icondeadfluttershyplz:
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Cutie-Kitty-Julie Featured By Owner Oct 10, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Hi
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gumballcariedarwin Featured By Owner Sep 1, 2013
i see you like my little pony.
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KoikoPunk-Unded Featured By Owner Aug 26, 2013  Student Digital Artist
:dummy: jaye my old friend!!  :dummy:

:party: :iconcake-plz: Happy birthday!! :party: :iconcake-plz:

i'm currently working on something for you, though i'm sorry it's going to be late though ;A;
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TheMrGumball Featured By Owner Aug 26, 2013  Student Digital Artist
Happy birthday!!! :iconfluttershyishappyplz:
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0640carlos Featured By Owner Aug 26, 2013  Student Artist
Happy Birthday! :party::cake:
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AllieofLink1 Featured By Owner Aug 26, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Happy Birthday!!!!!
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Kai-t-linbee Featured By Owner Aug 26, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
HAPPY BIRTHDAY fc08.deviantart.net/fs70/i/201…

You're Great friend :)
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SoUr-MaNtIs Featured By Owner Aug 27, 2013  Student General Artist
Thank you so much! Love you sis (≧▽≦)
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Kai-t-linbee Featured By Owner Aug 27, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
You're Welcome! Love you to Big Bro ^w^
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Red-Pandi Featured By Owner Aug 26, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
:iconrainbow-hplz::iconrainbow-aplz::iconrainbow-pplz::iconrainbow-pplz::iconrainbow-yplz:
:iconrainbow-bplz::iconrainbow-dplz::iconrainbow-aplz::iconrainbow-yplz:!!!
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